I wont write a disclaimer for this fear, because to me it is important.
Typically foreign exchange students gain weight their year abroad, but Zoe and I, and most of the other outbound girls, said that "hell nooooo". But here I am, eight pounds bigger than when I left the states and gaining if I dont suck it up and start watching what Im eating again. Obviously, one of the most important parts of an exchange year is trying everything and anything, and sometimes I think "fuck it, Ill get fat and be proud" but once you realize that your clothes aren't fitting like they used to, you get sad. And I dont like to be sad. It may sound superficial but gaining weight leads to seclosure and isolation because no one wants to be seen as "big", which also is bad during exchange. Your in a foriegn country to bloom as a person and come out of your shell but there is no way you can do that if your insecure about your appearance.
I say Im going to go on a diet, and trust me, I can do it if I want to. Losing weight isn't that hard. Its not a big mystery. Less caloies + more calories burned = weight loss. Really quite simple when you put it like that. And I've done it before. Its just finding that balance when your on exchange, between trying new foods...and eating everything you find mildly appetizing.
Its mostly just force of the mind, which I haven't been using for more than 2 months and I know starting to say "no" to myself once again will be difficult, especially because I dont want to say no to everything since I'm in Argentina and want to try the food.
Oh this is complicated for me. Damn Argentina for having such spectacular food. Once you try dulce de luche...you never go back.
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Kitty,
I know that you're insecure about your weight because you put so much work into getting into the shape that you're in. But honestly honey, eight pounds is nothing to fret over. I lose and gain 8 pounds over the course of a day.
You still look fantastic. So you keep enjoying your dulce de luche and let it make you happy. I support you in losing weight if you want to, in moderation of course, but in my opinion, you're a beautiful girl who really doesn't need to worry about gaining a few pounds while you're on exchange.
Good luck with your diet, and please Kitty, don't deprive yourself of ALL of the high calorie foods that you really cant get back in the states. Just eat a chalupa for me ok?
I love you, ya beautiful, curvy, gorgeous girl.
Don't ever doubt yourself.
xox
Hey! haha don't worry...I've gained much more then you! I have gained about 15 lbs already. I am eating "healther" (as healthy as i can in Brasil...) and I am going starting to go to the gym, but mostly that is just not to gain anymore. I figure, hey, I am in Brasil for one year. I want to experience it fully! that means the food and everything too! Even though sometimes I get self-conscience, I normally get over it and know that I'll diet when I get home and loose it all there!
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